As I wrote in my ‘about’ I have always been insecure about my writing. Last year my principal made the remark:
‘You can’t even write a par in the school newsletter’. Believe it or not, I believed her. Due to remarks similar to hers I developed the fear of failure to write. My lack of confidence can shut me down completely. In that way I have to agree with her.
Over the last few month myself confidence has increased. Not because it gets easier over time. I have to put in a lot of effort to write in English and at times my fear of failure still takes over. But thanks to the amount of people reading my blog regularly and the compliments I received from unexpected people, bit by bit I start believing in myself.
The most common compliment is that my blogs are easy to read ‘It’s like you’re in front of me sharing your story’. I’ve thought about it, it probably has to do with me hardly ever read myself. I guess as a result of that I created my own unique style of writing.
Even though writing in English is a challenging task I found it easier to focus on my writing when I write in English. This way I am not disturbed by my own thoughts. Although I have to admit I never gave it a try to write in my native language.
Up till today I did not put much effort whatsoever into boosting my traffic. Maybe now that I am more sure about my writing it’s time to take it to the next level…. -Bregje
Een gedachte over “My fear of failure ”
Lovely blog and excellent writing. Thanks for sharing.